I'm tired of it.

I really wanna give up on it. I scared i carn bare to leave. My heart aches. I really dunno wad to do. I want it but it's giving me a serious problem. With it, I really dun feel well. Having it starts to be seen as a burden for me. I'm sick of it. I really hope i won't end it. Tat's all I gonna post. Depression once again. It fluctuates and it's draining me. Haiz... If God gonna gimme one more chance to consider whether i could have it, I'll think TWICE.

Sick&Unhappy day.

Went to see doctor in the afternoon and came back home straight. Had my lunch and took my medicine. Slept the whole evening. Woke up. Everything seems to change. She kinda like hiding something from me.. She's ALWAYS like this. Even if she's unhappy with me also dun wanna tell me... Does she really understand how i feel? I ADMIT that i'm not a good boyfriend. I'll try to be one. But i hope she can tell and share with me her unhappiness and anger. She seldom share her unhappiness with me when she's angry with me. I ADMIT that i'm not sensitive enough. But that's my weakness. I'll trying to be more sensitive and caring. I just wanna her be happy. All i need from her is just a natural smile. A smile that can carry away the unhappiness and worries in my mind. How i wish she would gimme a call or sms me when she read this post telling me how she feels. That's all i had to say. Lastly, I love u.


Always in my heart,
Dearest LuLu

BORED........

Life is so meaningless. With no target in mind, I'm just a zombie walking, studying, eating, etc. I'm so bored. My brain is dead and it's has been on before and after the investiture. Unable to pay attention in class, unable to understand what the lecturers said, unable to do anything i wanted. I'm just so dead.

Investiture yesterday was successful. Able to show off for once. Stood on the stage with pride. Applause for me and every single councilers no matter issit from cabinet or house.

After investiture what's next? Uncountable number of events ahead. All i need is your support. Gimme your support when i'm down. Take initiative to ask me if i'm alright being issit in school, outside or at home.

Parent-teachers meeting is the next event for me to prepare. Take it as a warm-up for more events ahead. After it will be a major event for the school. TALENTIME. Haiz... No matter what even if i'm gonna quit council, i'll contribute 100% to this two events. Let's walk on together shan't we? Nothing is Impossible. And CHANGE HAS COME TO JURONG JUNIOR COLLEGE!



To my dearest LuLu,
Always in my heart.

Confession

CONFESSION. Is that the way it is? Sometimes I really hope i can stayonline with you but due to some circumstances.... I really hope you can accept it.. I'm sorry that i carn stay online.. These few days no argument. Glad that the relationship is going on well.. Deardear... Would you want to stay by my side for the rest of my life and walk together hand in hand till we're 99.... Hahax! confession? LOL.. k la.. deardear, love you!



Dearest LuLu
Always have you in my heart

Things are not going well and we faced something we don't like. PROBLEM. There's not one's fault. I'm trying my best to please you. Neither am i nor you have changed. Surrounding changed is the PROBLEM the always led to arugements between us. We shall chill down a little cos PROBLEM won't be resolved without a resolution. Deardear... realx k? If i've done something that pissed you off, i apologise.



















I'm sorry....















Apology to my dearest Lulu...
always have u in my heart..

If the bright lights blind your eyes,
my eyes will lead u home.
If you wander off too far,
my love will guide you home.
Have u ever find yourself,
wander all alone.
If ever you get to think of me,
And i will bring you home.

White lies

Somethings that i lied it's b'cos i dun wanna you to be upset.
Somethings that i lied it's b'cos i dun wanna you to worry.
somethings that i lied it's b'cos i dun wanna you to jealous.
I know lying is not good. If that's the case, then i will not keep eveything to myself le. i'm sorry, Lulu
If there's forever, it'll be us.
And remember, You're the current and I'm the sea.


Always in my heart, my Deardear

CCA HEADACHE TO SMELLY LULU

Getting in to jj is soso.. lucky haven't bcome jj-C arh.... hahax! tmmr choosing cca le...
lulu dunno wan choose wad sia...
mystery
secret
revealed tmmr... hahax!
sian
tired
shag
jj bbaall suk
invited me to go but dun wan
jj touch ruby invited me
rejected them
hahahahahax!
i let them feel the feeling of being rejected by me....
Muhhahahahahahax!

SUNBURNT!!

Went to training on saturday wif a fiery sun hung high up in the sky. Training as usual wif one more kranjian MR BLACK. Haiz... I really hope the problem regarding her can end. i dun wan this problem to worsen me relationship wif lulu. Lulu recently had little time wif me although we seems to be going out so oftenly. I really dunno wad to do. God please guide me and teach me. I want her to smile and be happy and not frown over this matter anymore.

LOve u(Miss LuLu)

JAE registration CONFIRMED. Hours to my 17th birthday..

Went to school to apply for jc.. Hope lady luck is wif us cos applying for ajc.. My feeling tells me then the chances of both of us entering ajc together is 39%.(Not very high) Tmmr going out for celebration wif lulu sia... first tym.. hahax! not fair can?! Everything also i planned de... HMPH! SMELLY LULU! Went to ajc for bball training yesterday and was quite................NORMAL. Didn't really understand how they manage to attain 2nd in the national.. AND i was late! cos of someone... Asking me to take bus no. 8... But nvr mind la.. If i can get to ajc and get to the team i'll take number 8 for my jersey... hahax! Nothing much to say le.. hope tmmr will be a MEMORABLE day for me horh! MISS LULU!


LOve u(Miss LuLu)

HOurs more to receive O level results!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So scary and nervours... How i wish my biggest present for this year is to get less than 10 for the exams. But no use worrying over abt it any more since it's already over..

Yesterday was Fun though tired. Worth it cos miss lulu smiled. And those DEAR DEAR were really smelly sia... HAHAX! Wonder wad will happen on my birthday..... MUhahahahaha


LOve u(miss lulu)

Zooing SOON!!!!!!!!

Going to zoo soon... but lulu seems like nt happy worhs... I tink i need bring a huge bag for her to throw everything in sia(best if can also throw her in)..... Muhahahaha.... Life is so boring man... Work and work and work..... Lucky gt tym for me to pool.. very long nvr touch bballl liaoo scared lose my feel towards my dardar.. hope can play wif dardar soon... Lulu..u gt anything just SmS me lorh.. my hp is 24/7 open for u for 365 days..


LOve u (MISS LuLu)